I feel lost T_T

yish... i feel lost... i don't know what i want ><""""
everything seem smoothly and still i m facing everyone with a smile face...but actually i feel lost....

where is my compass ??!!! i really mean it...

too many questions in my mind recently...
what will be my future career??
everyone is heading to the big four or big company...i m the only one who choose the small company that near my house...
some of frends choose to work to earn pocket money ...but i made a decision to continue my ACCA straight after internship without consider any other factors such as financial ...is it a wise decision???and somehow being in a relationship in this period ..hiding from my parents and so on... make me feel lost ~~~

what i want actually???
perhaps i need to bring myself to a place and have a deep thinking for what i want ~~
sob sob ~~

=((

yish!!!!! i am not happy!!!i am not happy!!! i am not happy!!!! where are you ??? >.<"""
i don't like the feeling that i am not happy but i can't tell out !!!!!!! =(

Regret!!!!!

13 August 2010

lesson learned : Don't prepare examination by only focus on tips given !!!!!!

i hate today !!!!! i had a very serious cough for the whole day ... until it really affect me when doing my exam!!!!! the first time , i think of just give up and pass up the paper then walk out from exam hall and go home straight away !!!!Didn't ever expect that i can cough until i have to force myself from stop writing the answer!!!! This is not the worst part!!!! the most sad thing is due to the medicine effect, i had been wasted most of the time to rest !!!!! In return , i do not have sufficient time for my second subject for Friday !!!! grrr.... i really regret now!!!! i should try my best to awake and fully study from the chapter one till the last chapter!!!!! due to i only focus on the tips given, i felt extremely regret once i read the exam questions !!!!! argh!!!!!!Really can't forgive myself!!!! Now the only thing i hope is all my exam result go smoothly !!!!!! please please don't let me have the chance to review back those question!!!!!! God bless me!!!!!

Now, is time for me to prepare for my last paper - company law!!!! from the lesson learnt, i better study all the area that being taught by lecturer !!!! Must fully utilize my energy and memorize all of it!!!!! About my sickness, apologize to it first, i really need the time for rest to study for my exam!!!!! So, promise myself take a good rest after exam !!!!!

+u+u for myself!!!!

Girl in the mirror ~

there's a girl in my mirror
i wonder who she is
sometimes i think i know her
sometimes i really wish i did
but that's a story in her eyes
lullabies and goodbyes

when she is looking back at me
i can tell her heart
is broken easily
cause the girl in my mirror
is crying tonight
and there is nothing i can tell her
to make her feel alright
oh,the girl in my mirror
is crying cause of you
and i wish there was something
something i could do

if i could i would tell her
not to be afraid
the pain that she is feeling
of sense of loneliness will fade
so dry your tears and rest assured
love will find your heart deeper
when she is looking back at me
i know nothing really
works that easily

caused the girl in my mirror
is crying tonight
and there is nothing i can tell her
to make her feel alright
oh,the girl in my mirror
is crying cause of you
and i wish there was something
i wish there was something
oh i wish there was
something i could do

i can't believe it's what i see
and the girl in the mirror
and the girl in the mirror is me
i cant believe what i see
the girl
(you're the girl in my mirror)
the girl in my mirror is me
oh, is me

cause the girl in my mirror
is crying tonight
and there is nothing i can tell her
to make her feel alright
oh the girl in my mirror
is crying because of you
and wish there was something
oh i wish there was
something i could do

+u....

nothing to be worry about and sad about...
just have a clear mind and tough in everything !!
cheer up ^^

there will come a time when you believe everything is finished ...that will be the beginning ~~
let's welcome the beginning with a happy mind ^^

believe the unbelievable and accept the impossible ~

Tired ~

hi there~~i m here finally after disappear for few months ...
the only word can describe my recent life will be " tired"...
i still remember...i told my friend b4 i enjoy busy life...n i even told them that " stress is my good friend" ..maybe this is a positive thinking...
but sometime...think is one method..but the action is the another method...it is hard to link it together ...

in this sem..i really learnt a lot ...
especially when do the BRM assignment..
unexpected ..this assignment really drive me crazy ...
not only hypothesis testing..but also the whole assignment..
as a student...we can't blame anyone...we just can study more hard and try to solve all the problem in the research....
what i hope is only...the final marks for brm is OK...at least dun waste others group members ' effort.

then....the due date for brm assignment is 7/4/2010..and my final exam paper is 9/4/2010...
i feel so sorry to moral....i really dun have time to study for it....
i forced to study and memorized the whole moral in two days time...
Really hope the result "can see"...

erm..the thing i mentioned above is related to academic...actually...
there is others thing make me feel tired also...

It really mix up all the complicated stuff ~~ until i cant even differentiate whether it is exist or not....
someone told me to be brave to find out the answer.....
the only thing that stopped me is....

" answer could either in positive or negative way....
A positive answer will definitely bring happiness but may a Little bit of scare ..
but if the answer is in negative way...it will be hurt...
and i dunno how hurt it will be or how happy it will be...
doubt me....
i m not that brave in everything ...
and somehow i m not that tough like what i show to others..

there is a weak thinking appear ..even though i dun wan to admit...but it is..
i will be give up something even though i wish or i like ..just because i afraid of hurt ..

P/S : can i run away ?? at least for this sem break ...

just wan to say something ^^

wow...when i read back my previous post just now..i just noticed ..a few of my post are very sad....so ..is it time for me to back to normal from abnormal??or i m not a normal person at all from last time ????lolz....

erm..what happen to me these few days?? seem moody for whole day only...eventhough went to lou sang with uni coursemate ..also i bcome diam diam n seem locked myself in my own world~~~impossible rite?but please do not ask me why ??!!honestly as i myself also duno what is happening..~~

now is my second year second sem now..my timetable for this sem seem free for this sem..
but duno why again..i seem like getting busy than previous sem...
still remember last few sem..i willl start to burn midnight oil to do assignment or whatever starting only week 7 or week 8..but for this sem...why i start to do assignment for almost whole night since week 3??!!! grrr.....

is a new year 2010 now~~~
congratulate to my friends, as many of them ady found a "partner"..^^]
many friends of mine still ask me a same question since duno how many years ago oo...
guess what ~~that question is ~~ WHEN U WANT TO GET IN A RELATIONSHIP ??
but my question is ..why do i need to get into a relationship??
=P
sometime...there is one thing that i cant control...so ..just let it be.

grr....audit....~~i scare this subject most....hope i can study n prepare well for my exam n all assignment..
must balance my time between study n play ady ~~~
hee...

lastly....heard that shogun is quite a nice place to go..
so..~~
anyone interested?