P|nG's DiarY

I feel lost T_T

2011-07-01T10:01:00.000-07:00

yish... i feel lost... i don't know what i want ><""""
everything seem smoothly and still i m facing everyone with a smile face...but actually i feel lost....

where is my compass ??!!! i really mean it...

too many questions in my mind recently...
what will be my future career??
everyone is heading to the big four or big company...i m the only one who choose the small company that near my house...
some of frends choose to work to earn pocket money ...but i made a decision to continue my ACCA straight after internship without consider any other factors such as financial ...is it a wise decision???and somehow being in a relationship in this period ..hiding from my parents and so on... make me feel lost ~~~

what i want actually???
perhaps i need to bring myself to a place and have a deep thinking for what i want ~~
sob sob ~~

=((

2011-02-28T05:24:00.001-08:00

yish!!!!! i am not happy!!!i am not happy!!! i am not happy!!!! where are you ??? >.<"""
i don't like the feeling that i am not happy but i can't tell out !!!!!!! =(

Regret!!!!!

2010-08-13T22:43:00.001-07:00

13 August 2010

lesson learned : Don't prepare examination by only focus on tips given !!!!!!

i hate today !!!!! i had a very serious cough for the whole day ... until it really affect me when doing my exam!!!!! the first time , i think of just give up and pass up the paper then walk out from exam hall and go home straight away !!!!Didn't ever expect that i can cough until i have to force myself from stop writing the answer!!!! This is not the worst part!!!! the most sad thing is due to the medicine effect, i had been wasted most of the time to rest !!!!! In return , i do not have sufficient time for my second subject for Friday !!!! grrr.... i really regret now!!!! i should try my best to awake and fully study from the chapter one till the last chapter!!!!! due to i only focus on the tips given, i felt extremely regret once i read the exam questions !!!!! argh!!!!!!Really can't forgive myself!!!! Now the only thing i hope is all my exam result go smoothly !!!!!! please please don't let me have the chance to review back those question!!!!!! God bless me!!!!!

Now, is time for me to prepare for my last paper - company law!!!! from the lesson learnt, i better study all the area that being taught by lecturer !!!! Must fully utilize my energy and memorize all of it!!!!! About my sickness, apologize to it first, i really need the time for rest to study for my exam!!!!! So, promise myself take a good rest after exam !!!!!

+u+u for myself!!!!

Girl in the mirror ~

2010-05-13T10:29:00.000-07:00

there's a girl in my mirror
i wonder who she is
sometimes i think i know her
sometimes i really wish i did
but that's a story in her eyes
lullabies and goodbyes

when she is looking back at me
i can tell her heart
is broken easily
cause the girl in my mirror
is crying tonight
and there is nothing i can tell her
to make her feel alright
oh,the girl in my mirror
is crying cause of you
and i wish there was something
something i could do

if i could i would tell her
not to be afraid
the pain that she is feeling
of sense of loneliness will fade
so dry your tears and rest assured
love will find your heart deeper
when she is looking back at me
i know nothing really
works that easily

caused the girl in my mirror
is crying tonight
and there is nothing i can tell her
to make her feel alright
oh,the girl in my mirror
is crying cause of you
and i wish there was something
i wish there was something
oh i wish there was
something i could do

i can't believe it's what i see
and the girl in the mirror
and the girl in the mirror is me
i cant believe what i see
the girl
(you're the girl in my mirror)
the girl in my mirror is me
oh, is me

cause the girl in my mirror
is crying tonight
and there is nothing i can tell her
to make her feel alright
oh the girl in my mirror
is crying because of you
and wish there was something
oh i wish there was
something i could do

+u....

2010-05-07T09:04:00.000-07:00

nothing to be worry about and sad about...
just have a clear mind and tough in everything !!
cheer up ^^

there will come a time when you believe everything is finished ...that will be the beginning ~~
let's welcome the beginning with a happy mind ^^

believe the unbelievable and accept the impossible ~

Tired ~

2010-04-20T08:47:00.000-07:00

hi there~~i m here finally after disappear for few months ...
the only word can describe my recent life will be " tired"...
i still remember...i told my friend b4 i enjoy busy life...n i even told them that " stress is my good friend" ..maybe this is a positive thinking...
but sometime...think is one method..but the action is the another method...it is hard to link it together ...

in this sem..i really learnt a lot ...
especially when do the BRM assignment..
unexpected ..this assignment really drive me crazy ...
not only hypothesis testing..but also the whole assignment..
as a student...we can't blame anyone...we just can study more hard and try to solve all the problem in the research....
what i hope is only...the final marks for brm is OK...at least dun waste others group members ' effort.

then....the due date for brm assignment is 7/4/2010..and my final exam paper is 9/4/2010...
i feel so sorry to moral....i really dun have time to study for it....
i forced to study and memorized the whole moral in two days time...
Really hope the result "can see"...

erm..the thing i mentioned above is related to academic...actually...
there is others thing make me feel tired also...

It really mix up all the complicated stuff ~~ until i cant even differentiate whether it is exist or not....
someone told me to be brave to find out the answer.....
the only thing that stopped me is....

" answer could either in positive or negative way....
A positive answer will definitely bring happiness but may a Little bit of scare ..
but if the answer is in negative way...it will be hurt...
and i dunno how hurt it will be or how happy it will be...
doubt me....
i m not that brave in everything ...
and somehow i m not that tough like what i show to others..

there is a weak thinking appear ..even though i dun wan to admit...but it is..
i will be give up something even though i wish or i like ..just because i afraid of hurt ..

P/S : can i run away ?? at least for this sem break ...

just wan to say something ^^

2010-02-08T01:38:00.000-08:00

wow...when i read back my previous post just now..i just noticed ..a few of my post are very sad....so ..is it time for me to back to normal from abnormal??or i m not a normal person at all from last time ????lolz....

erm..what happen to me these few days?? seem moody for whole day only...eventhough went to lou sang with uni coursemate ..also i bcome diam diam n seem locked myself in my own world~~~impossible rite?but please do not ask me why ??!!honestly as i myself also duno what is happening..~~

now is my second year second sem now..my timetable for this sem seem free for this sem..
but duno why again..i seem like getting busy than previous sem...
still remember last few sem..i willl start to burn midnight oil to do assignment or whatever starting only week 7 or week 8..but for this sem...why i start to do assignment for almost whole night since week 3??!!! grrr.....

is a new year 2010 now~~~
congratulate to my friends, as many of them ady found a "partner"..^^]
many friends of mine still ask me a same question since duno how many years ago oo...
guess what ~~that question is ~~ WHEN U WANT TO GET IN A RELATIONSHIP ??
but my question is ..why do i need to get into a relationship??
=P
sometime...there is one thing that i cant control...so ..just let it be.

grr....audit....~~i scare this subject most....hope i can study n prepare well for my exam n all assignment..
must balance my time between study n play ady ~~~
hee...

lastly....heard that shogun is quite a nice place to go..
so..~~
anyone interested?

4/2/10-5/02/10

2010-02-05T09:18:00.000-08:00

yesterday i was so so so free to stay back at uni just to support my cousemate due to both of them were participating the badminton match...at last..they did not win..actually it is a bit sad from my point of view..due to there is a small " incident " happen ....
i don't know what to tell them ...so just wish my friend get well soon...as ucsi have quite a lot staircase...if still injure like that,it could be "pain n struggle " for a long time..=P
and to my jimui ~~ cheer up ^^ n +u for next year...u can still participate for coming year rite??^^

n it is so sarcastic that yesterday i was there to tell my friends don't be so sad for what happening...but today i was totally locked my myself in my own world..and seem like i dun even want to let others enter my world...actually today is a normal day .but is a quite important date for me...as it really remind me of a very sad past event..as normal...i still act like nothing ..until at last i will really cant control my own emotion .....too bad..again..i become the loser !!!!
don't wish to share the whole story again at here as i scare i will lost control again...but i just want to thanks to my jimui ....n my friend( a friend who so bad luck that always become my victims ) for "an wei " and sorry to disturb ~~ ^^

miss her ~~

2009-12-19T07:53:00.000-08:00

11.53 pm....
honestly ..i really miss her...
even though i had try my best to make myself busy but still i can't forget today is her birthday ...
a present that i already prepare since early of this year...
but ..i can't give her...
what to do ??

these day ..i feel very down ....
too many things happened around me..
and some of it i really cant solve it...
b4 this u r the one who always help me solve problem...
doing all the crazy stuff...
and chit chat and do anything we like just like nobody is looking at us...

everything had change now....
and i knew that i need to accept all of this..
but since today is a really special day..
please let me behave like this for one day...

miss you so much .......

。。。

2009-09-28T02:11:00.000-07:00

啊！！！！
看来我这个学期又要从开学的第一个星期担心到final 了！！！！
谁叫我这个家伙又再次的闯祸了。。
有时还真的觉得跟我同组的组员们很可怜。。。
尤其是某一位先生。。常常被我气死。。。
都不知道他之前会生病。。是不是被我气到。。
hee....
啊。。。明天要开会了啦！！！！
救命。。
神啊！！请保佑我明天不要闯祸！！！~~

* p/s ：能不能把不曾属于我的东西，变成我的专属物品？？

worry + depressed

2009-09-27T09:09:00.000-07:00

argh!!!
神啊，请保佑我的病快快痊愈！！！

i have alot of assignment n test is waiting there !!!!
about two weeks later...i will have my final !!!
argh!!!~~~
good luck to me~~~
~.~

about Hu3y^P|nG

2009-09-01T09:33:00.000-07:00

look at me
you may think you see
who i really am
but you’ll never know me
every day
it’s as if i play a part
now i see
if i wear a mask
i can fool the world
but i cannot fool my heart
who is that girl i see
staring straight at back at me?
when will my reflection show
who i am inside?
i am now
in a world where i have to hide my heart
and what i believe in
but somehow
i will show the world what’s inside my heart
and be loved for who i am
who is that girl i see
staring straight back at me?
why is my reflection
someone i don’t know?
must i pretend i am
someone else for all time?
when will my reflection show
who i am inside?
there’s a heart that must be free to fly
that burns with a need to know the reason why
why must we all conceal
what we think?
how we feel?
must there be a secret me
i am forced to hide?
i won’t pretend that i am
someone else
for all time
when will my reflection show
who i am inside?
when will my reflection show
who i am inside?

1/9/2009 ,我不喜欢今天！！

2009-09-01T08:15:00.000-07:00

从来，我就不认为我是个脆弱的人，就算我从小就寄住在外婆家直到三年级才跟父母一起住，就算我不是在父母的呵护下成长，就算我几个月才能见到父母几次，我也不觉得我的童年会比其他同龄的小孩缺少了什么。虽然，我和父母的感情可能会比较生疏，但我很高兴我能自由自在的和一班小瓜们在傍晚时一起骑脚踏车，跳绳，玩躲猫猫，和父亲还有姐姐一起玩老鹰捉小鸡。。

可是，最近我发现我自己越来越消沉了。。。越来越不开心了。。。我在大学里，整天和朋友嘻嘻哈哈，讨论功课，做assignment，sing k 。。。但是。。很遗憾的。。有时我会想我到底是不是真的很开心。。。又或许那只是我装出来的假象。。。感觉像是戴着面具。。。好虚伪！！！

有朋友说过我很坚强。。但。。我真的坚强吗？？
韵姿的过世。。我以为我已经忘记了。。。但。。其实我根本忘不了。。。
有时，半夜睡不着时，我还是会重看那片最珍藏的cd。。。。那片cd并不是什么电影，“它” 是韵姿亲手做给我的一些短片。。17 岁的生日礼物。。有时，更会傻傻的跑去拿她送过给我的贺卡来看。。我敢保证那些贺卡是我收过的贺卡当中最特别的。。。。虽然里面写的东西，真的很欠打。。。不过我再也找不到第二张了。。。

今天，我知道了一件事情。。今天早上，我就收到了一封短讯。。。写着我以前一起做工的一个同事过世了。。这次，，，很显然的。。。我很努力的控制了自己的情绪。。。还记得。。七个月前当我知道韵姿的事时，我很懦弱的躲进了洗手间，也不知哭了多久，也不知呆了多久。。。这一次。。。我竟然很平静的坐在一旁跟朋友嘻嘻哈哈。。。大考的成绩也在今天出了。。。
很老实得说。。成绩不是很理想。。。但。我竟然还能在msn 跟朋友们嘻嘻哈哈。。。也不知道是真的没事。。还是伤心过度。。。或是已经习惯了无论在什么情况。。什么情景下都笑了。。。

2009 年。。
我竟然失去了一个最好的朋友和一个教了我很多东西的长辈。。。。
如果这不是事实，那该有多好。。。。

这应该就是所谓的过度期吧。。。。
一个需要忍过去，撑过去，在难过也要度过的时期。。。

冰块，，，加油！！

21st birthday ^^

2009-08-30T06:02:00.000-07:00

oh~~ i m now 21 years old ady!!!! i can't said i m 20 anymore !!!!!yierr!!!dun like !!why got 1 ~~~~~

lolz...actually my birthday is 31/7 ...but since that time i m so so so busy playing :P..and final exam period..so until now..almost september ady .i just write "something " about what happen with my 21st birthday ~~

i m so so so so excited @@!!! i m 21 years old ady!!!hahaha~~~ mom had bought me a "silver key" ( i dun wan golden key , like very oldstyle~~ ) ..is it means that i m free to do everything?? ngek ngek ngek~~~

celebrations for this birthday really awesome~~

the most unforgotable celebration will be 30/7/2009 at T.G.I Friday !!I was celebrate together with my ex-colleages at Pavilion...oh gosh ....it is so so so suprise !!!i love steak!!!my meal for that day was a Jack Daniel' fish chop and green apple juice!!!yummy~~~eventhought this is not the first time i went to T.G.I ,but it was first time that i "saw" how T.G.I help the birthday person celebrate birthday !!omg ..it is so so so "special " until i wish my colleage would not tell them that they are going to help me celebrate my birthday !!

when i was fighting with one of them..n i still remember i was said loudly " if u tell them tomorrow is my birthday , i will remember the rest of my life!!! "

then ..i continue with my yummy food ...

and ..its comes~~~

suddenly i heard the ring of bell ( means that there is birthday person )..and i was very looking for which table is it ( i know i m very stupid )...and ...so so so suprise..

two of the waiter get a chair n put beside me ..

and ..asked me to STAND UP on that chair..

oh gosh!!!and that time ..my colleages ....all of them ..were laughing non stop at there ..!!!!

and i ...stand up on the chair..then the captain ..with all the BELOVED waiter n waitress..stand at myside...and start to sing song !!!!!firstly ..i tot ..they just going to sing a birthday song !!

but~~i m too silly if i have this kind of silly thinking!!!they had sang for FIVE songs !!!!

i still remember ....WE WILL WE WILL ROCK YOU@!!!!

gosh ...dun understand why ..when they sing that song.i suddenly think about FOM lecturer!!=="then....after they finish sing...others customers also finsih looking at me !!~~(embrassing)

then ..that captain take a cake with 2 big candles n one small candle!!!and ..u know what he did?

he want me to stand on the chair ..n blow the candle in about 1 meter far from my position .. ==

and the worse is ...he said..i will be given three chances to blow the candles..

if i cant blow the candles in three times..then he will PULL THE CAKE ON MY FACE!!!!

omg!!!!!

* p/s ...mr. captain ...that cake is Lavender' product...u know .it is not cheap !!!~~~

luckily i manage to "gao dim " that candles in second times...finally that captain let me go down n eat my cake ~~ ( waited for so long =P)

after that ,i went for movie " lost land " ...lolz..first time i went for midnite movie ...since i m guai guai lui ...so better ask for my parent permisson first...dun dare gao gao zhan..eventhough i always gao gao zhan..:P suprisingly ,they said OK ~~ ( i wonder ...will they prepare "rotan " in front of door ..)so ..i just follow my colleages~~yish .that movie is really very funny + mou liu ~~

really laugh until cant sit properly...when we went out from the cinema ady 1.15 am.....wow..first time i have the chance to c the night scene in kl ~~

wow~~not bad what ...i like those lights..~it is so colourful ..but if the sky is full of stars then it really great!!! =P

P/S before i continue the story..i ould like to thanks Ahyen & Ah fai !!!thansk for celebrate birthday for me oo!! Ah fai!!i will remeber what i said ...i will remember u rest of my life!!!

yahoo~~now is celebration on the 31/7/2009!!

not only for me ..because ..i met a gal .Josephine ..she born same day as me ~~ =P

and also celebration for another leo baby ~~ Binson~(28/7)

happy birthday !!!^O^

lolz..i reached uni at 10 am ady !!! argh!!!so pity la..i dun want come to uni!!! :P

but actually i went to uni for play only~~haha~`my "old " n pretty buddy ~~chrisitne ..date with her ady ~~too bad..suddenly there is another bad guy , Ivan come kacau !! :P

*guess he wont read my blog ..so wont kill by him ~~lalala~~

yahoo~~at first we went to secret recipe ~~~i had a free meal by bad guy ~~haha~~

lagsane ~~thanks ~~~^^and ..we took quite a lot of pictures ...hee~~after that we went to sing k at belakong green box~~=) fuiyoo~~christine solo oo~~not bad what ~~~ plus Ivan~~~hehehe~~at first keep act cool at there ...after that ...play together n sing together with us ady !!haha~~after finish this two activites..is ady 5 pm ady..

and i had to rush back to uni ..due to wan go out with "beloved "coursemate to have dinner~~

yahoo~~heard it will be at serdang there....but actually i duno where is it ..so just wait for Mr. Jason to fetch me n josephine~~then ..when i reach there...~~~~oh gosh~~`

erm..

that gal with pink shirt!!!!!!

am i wrong???or i too miss her?? ( muakks) haha

nononono!!!

is she....!!!is joyce !!!omg ..that gal !!!!she told me that she wont join!!!!!!!!!(sei ye...u trick me!!!! ) hng!!!ignore u !!! :P is quite suprise oo..suddenly c her at there..but dun care la..go find a seat n start to eat..!!!haha....

guess what ..we have a dinner like in the "telephone restaurant" ..means bbq + steamboat~~~

got something ..i want to mention here!!!

mr. simon...

he is my idol~~~~ :P first time i c got ppl cook "ho bao dan " with the bbq stuff!!!~~and ..suprisingly..he get a quite success "ho bao dan " ...will be show u the pic later..~~

then..is about simon again..

ngek ngek ngek ...

i curi-curi mix the butter with ce cream ( vanilla ) and ...i gave to simon ...and i purposely use the big tea spoon and put in his mouth ~~hahaha~~luckily he didnt whack me~~just said loudly...NO WONDER LA...WHY HP SO GOOD WILL "SUAP" ME ICE CREAM DE~~~

P/S : wei...i m very kind de lo~~:P

after that ...mr. simon and .mr thomas ..have a competition ~~one eat a egg ( not boiled at all ) ..and another eat erm..actually i duno what is it ..but looks quite scary + disdusting..

i wonder they will rush to toilet for how many times.... =="

after that ... it is picture time ~~ actually we took picture all the time~~ haha~~

then ............

then.............

ohhhh~~~so sad ~~~is time for us to go home ady ~~~about 11 pm~~

oopss...before i end this post!~~~~

thanks to all of u !!!!Huey Ping regards !!

specially thanks to~

Huei Ling!!

u know??

u r the first one who wish me happy birthday oo!!! ^^

jian wei !!!

hey buddy !!

how 's ur life in australia??

thanks for ur meal o~~~~

cardmaker~~ VCKH

this guy realy geng in arts!!haizh!!i lose ady!!!!sobsob!!!!:P

guess what he did?..3D card~~

Weng fai ~~

my good friend!!!

yoyo~~so touch ler!!!knew u since form 4 ,first time u remember my birthday oo~~~

lay koon~~
i knwo u r the one who wrap present ~~ ^^

lay koon,joyce n ah yap!!!

i know "u " r the one who buy the present ~~ ^^

and all my fren!!!muakks~~ ^^

result~second sem of first year

2009-05-11T06:40:00.000-07:00

yahoo..finally i m enter third sem of my first year...
going to complete my first year soon ...
all my result had been released..
guess what..i don't know whether should i happy for it or feel sad for it..
if compare to my result of first sem ..the second result really orz~~~
especially Malaysian studies...oh gosh...
is a subject that study about history....
really cant let my form 6 teacher knew that i only get 57 out of 100 for this subject..
if not..for sure ..i will killed by him..
for the english...sobsob..
just bcoz a silly mistake ..i straight away lost 10 marks ....
10 marks!~!!!!!argh!!!!
just bcoz i blur enough write the answer in the rough paper!!!==
really wan kill myself ady...until i only get 77 ...no A ady !!!sobsob...
then the third subject..Financial Accounting 1..
is my first accounting paper...
first time go for the account exam....
no confident at all....accruals..depreciation...prepayments...argh!!!
for this subject...i really scare...
becoz i still remember i get a really bad result in mid term..
luckily ..the FA group assignment can get full marks..
n its really help me much ...
the fourth subject ...Business Information System...
this subject is taught by MR. M.~~~~
not really interesting in this subject honestly..:P
is all about IT..~~~
i m a pc idiot ..
the only way to pass this subject...is i have to memorise all the things..
a day b4 this subject..i hope that i m those guys..
bcoz they dun even nid to study about it!!!
the fifth subject~~
Fundamentals of Marketing~~~
taught by my "beloved" lecturer Ah Quah...
this is the subject i most scared n most worry!!!
as my others frends told me that ..
Ah Quah very strict...
n it is normal for his student to take the supplementary paper!!~~
argh!!!!
hrm...
after attend his class for one sem..
what i can said is ..
he can say is a good lecturer with cunning smile..~~^^
think will be the only lecturer with cunning smile..:P:P
just thanks to him at here..coz not going to thank him in uni there~~
as really dun wish to c him :P
luckily i pass this subject and get a ok result ..
when think of this subject..i m going to whack my coursemate..HAN WEI..
i still remember ..when i damn worry about my FOM..
he told me ah Quah might let me take supp paper for "certain " reason ~~ =="

as a whole..my second sem of first year really quite bad la!!!~~
as one of my brother~~
also say"SINCE WHEN U BCOME SO STUPID ADY A??"
haizh..
n most of my frens really cant believe when i tell them i only aim for PASS for all the subject in this sme!!!

argh!!
is time for me to wake up!!!
now is the new sem !!
i m going to work hard for it !!!
i cant lose to myself!!
+u+u !!!

Tax!!eventhough i still cant catch up ...but i sure can defeat u !!!
CMA n ECONS !!i dun believe is i do more exercise i will lose!!
b. LAW !!if i do further study everyday ,u r just as a slice of cake for me!!hng!!
b.com~~dun care what r u !!just study!!dun care how messy are u ..i refer textbook!!!

Susan Boyle - i dreamed a dream

2009-04-25T22:16:00.000-07:00

I Dreamed a Dream

There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.

我从来都不会想去听的一首歌。。。
如果不是因为在YOUTUBE 看到Susan Boyle的video...
真感人的video。。。。

在她还没开始唱歌时
在台下的观众和评审都不大看好她。。
尤其是当她的愿望是要成为一位职业歌手时。。。

没想到。。
她唱的很棒哦~~

虽然。。
在开始时。。
大家都不看好她。。
甚至嘲笑她。。。
但她最后以她的实力成为了胜利者。。

有时。。
在做事时。。
是不是也应该不要太过在乎表面上的东西。。
而更应该更深入的去探讨内在呢？？
最最重要的是。。。
每个人都有自己的强项。。。
可别因为某个原因而轻视别人。。
换个角度。。
既然同样是人类。。。
我们又有什么资格去看不起别人？？

birthday celebration~~

2009-04-22T04:28:00.000-07:00

yahoo~~today is gan gan birthday celebration ler~~~hehe..actually also celebration for Kin Hooh n Lay Koon..but both of them duno about it wakakakak...

well..luckily all things running smoothly...
hee..thanks to jo first..coz help me to stop gan gan from follow me together to ts..
if not....i duno how to wrap the present and gao dim all those things(cake + ktv room ) ...
then ..wan thanks to wai kin also..coz didnt tell KH n LK about the cake stuff...!!

wow..first time going out with so many coursemate ...cant think of it will b sing k~~
actually it is quite fun n enjoy !!!haha~~
but dunno how others think la~~
erm..duno next time will be going out n play together or not ~~hee~~

erm...nothing much to say about it..
but today is a happy day !!second day of my sem break~~~
looking forward to next n next next day until end of my sem break~~

lastly..wish LK n KH happy belated birthday !!
n gan gan~~~i m yours~~(Jasaon Marc )..happy birthday ya~~eventhough i know it is 27/4 ~~
but just to remind u that u ady old one years !!haha~

* very touch ler...i didnt fool u lo~~ :P

finish exam ~~~

2009-04-20T02:21:00.000-07:00

wahahahahahaha~~~
at last ..i finish my final exam for this sem ady!!~~
hooo~~~this sem really scary..so so so so busy ler!!~~~
first taking account paper ..yierr..so worry la!!~~
just hope i can pass all subject...hehe..hope can pass first ~~
next time just aim for higher grade~~~
erm..having about 10 days holiday ...what to do ler??
erm...study for next sem....wahahahha...will i bcome so hardworing??who knows...
but ..at last can rest for a while...
yippee..
i like this wednesday!!celebration birthday for my fren!!!
sure very fun!!
perhaps she must present to the party..
if not~~~whack her when opening new sem
:P

BIS presentation

2009-03-30T02:01:00.000-07:00

hooray!!finally all the presentation is over!!~~
today is presentation for the Business Information System..
yierr...y the presenter is me??!!
honestly , it is really scary..when i think of we have 250 students in the class!!!~~
is 250 ..not 25 ppl o~~
but what to do ??
keep telling myself that"huey ping ..u can do it...jia u!!!"
eventhough me n shi ying present together..but still got a bit scare...
there is something i feel disppointed...Mr. M 's laptop..
haizh..if use Joyce 's laptop ..then all the slide n the effects will be very smooth... :P
last of all..i pray that lecturer understand our presentation..
please ~~as one of the presenter ..i really worry that our performance will caused our group lose marks..~~
*dunno how is my performance..hope is ok overall :P

hmm..is time for me to start my revision..final coming soon!!again!!
Hu3y^PnG +u !! ^^

* Memories *

2009-03-24T02:58:00.000-07:00

Leave one memory (as a comment) that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot or you didn't like me. It doesn't matter how long or short or retarded or happy or emo the memory is. After you're done leaving your memory, answer this.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How do you feel about me?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?
15. What is my best quality?

Next, re-post this in your notes and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty cool (and funny) to see the responses. Re-post as "MEMORIES."

永远的知己-韵姿

2009-02-06T08:07:00.000-08:00

刚刚从韵姿的丧礼回来，我现在的心情，很明显的还是很低落。。。

我一直都很努力的在控制着自己的情绪。。。

可是，当我刚才一看到韵姿时，我真的再也无法控制了。。。

我只能说。。我完全崩溃。。就在的西北方的位置。。

我真的完全接受不到。。。

虽然，我在十二月中时。。。知道她生病了。。。

可是。。她并没有把真正病因告诉我们。。。

我上个星期才跟她通电话。。没想到。。那竟然变成了我跟她的最后一通电话。。

昨天，没有去到医院看她。。实在是令我很遗憾。。。

当一接到她过世的消息。。。我根本就不相信。。。

还马上打电话跟她的男朋友确认。。。

一直在强忍着的我。。。

竟然。。。在大学时完全崩溃。。。

冲进洗手间痛哭。。。

从昨天一直到今天早上。。。

吓坏了几个大学朋友。。。。

可能是因为在大学崩溃了两次。。

所以刚才在丧礼时。。还可以在短时间内控制自己的情绪。。。

很明显的，这件事真的太突然了。。。

我真的很伤心。。。

可是。。我还是装着没事的跟几个好朋友说我没事。。。

我要谢谢他们的关心。。。

只不过。。韵姿是我中学时期，女生朋友之中最好的朋友。。。

我真的需要一点店的时间来处理我的情绪。。。

永远都会记得的日期。。。

一九八八年十二月十九日。。。。我讨厌今天！！

二零零九年二月五日。。。下午两点十五分。。

*韵姿，知己这两个字，是你在我十五岁生日卡上所写的。。。。。

“何谓知己？知己就是比朋友更高一级的白痴！最不幸的是他们明知被利用也不能反抗。可是比“ 最不幸”更不幸的是你的知己竟是我！”

我一直都很庆幸认识你。。。虽然我承认有时真的被你气死！！

因为你的关系。。。我的中学生涯几乎多姿多彩。。。

我只能用四个字来形容你 “ 又爱又恨 ”

我衷心感谢你一直以来给与的鼓励以及帮助！！

希望你在另一个世界每天都开开心心。。。

永远的知己！！

狮子座。。。

2008-11-26T21:54:00.000-08:00

狮子座

狮子座，一个博爱和充满阳光，能量的星座，其实狮子座的人很向往爱情，他所拥有的爱情有的时候不是真的爱情，或者只是一种向往或者是自己的梦想，说白了就是狮子座的人最爱的是自己，他要让自己发光发热，获得别人的爱和崇敬，在这其中，他能够体会到这种来自他人的关爱而感到愉悦，于是，他就爱上了别人。。。可是，狮子座的我们想想，仔细想想，你真的爱了吗？真的象你说的那样的爱吗？

究其根本，我们爱了，是因为我们爱自己，狮子座的人的自恋程度可以说是十二星座之首，他可以因为别人的崇拜的目光或者是弱势的态度而展现自己的爱和博大胸襟，但是，这不是纯粹的爱；

此外，狮子座的人很喜欢征服感，或者他不爱你，或者还不足够爱你，但是为了一份征服感，他或者会“爱”上你，以证明自己的非凡魅力，当然，狮子座的人很不愿意伤害别人，因为他的内心是善良和充满正义感的，他是重视原则的人，但是，如果他做了伤害别人的事情，即便出于面子他没有说什么，但是其实内心里他会真的好自责好内疚的，虽然别人看不到，但是他的确会好难过。

狮子座的人，无论男女，都很容易陷入一份感情，但是热情来的很快，冷却的速度也快得惊人，我不知道别人是不是这样，我是真的这样的。如果他可以对一份感情持续很长的时间，那么恭喜了，说明你真的很强势很有魅力，足以让他对你死心塌地，否则，狮子座这种内在没有安全感又很敏感的动物，很可能从更有魅力和新鲜的事物上找温暖，因为，狮子座的我们看起来好坚强好阳光好乐观，但是骨子里面的不安感从未消退过，表面的自信只不过是保护自己的盔甲，但并不是很真实。

同时，狮子座的人也可以很绝情，这点我认识所有的狮子座的人也包括我自己都很像，不可能吃回头草，字典里没有“后悔”或者“回头”这两个词，因为狮子座的人很爱面子，自尊心比什么都重要，一旦放弃了或者决定了，就不可能回过头去改变，狮子座的人也很怕被伤害。作为我，宁可错过一份感情，宁可放弃。宁可不要，也不会冒可能会被伤害的危险，因为太不值得，因为狮子座的人太爱自己了。。。

狮子座的人喜欢热闹，但是也很享受孤独，他可以把这两者之间搞得很平衡，他很喜欢跟朋友一起，疯狂的玩闹，成为一个party的主角，但是回到家里，他立马就可以变得异常安静，不喜欢被打扰，他需要自己的空间来思考，如果不给狮子这个空间，对他步步紧逼，那么他一定会抓狂，变得不可理喻，他还会离开你，因为在狮子的字典里，“自由”和“自我”这两词的比重几乎占据了全部。

还有，狮子座的人很喜欢新鲜的，华丽的，有质感的，昂贵的，有品位的东西，他也喜欢朴实，但是却不喜欢无聊和无趣，他害怕一成不变的枯燥，他害怕今天就能预见明天的可能性，他喜欢为止的新鲜有趣的事物，如果你恰好具备了这一点，那么你和狮子座的人很配合。

狮子座的人有两种不同的倾向，一种是很喜欢天然的东西，不喜欢过多的修饰；另一类是很喜欢奢华另类奇特的事物，更多是狮子座是两者兼有，我属于这一种，我讨厌过度无谓的修饰，但是欣赏另类特别和高雅的事物，对于爱人的选择上，可能也会结合这个标准。

狮子座的人很宽容，通常不会因为小事而斤斤计较，他们喜欢展现自己与众不同的仁慈心和获得尊重。对于过往的爱人，狮子座的人很少去探讨是谁的功过是非，无论当时对方有多伤害自己，但是过去了就过去了，狮子座的人不会去诅咒或者怨恨，因为他们喜欢向前看，他们不喜欢做八婆和有损自己高贵形象的事情。狮子座的人相信，只要自己完美和努力，幸福就在前方，更美好的一定在等待着我们！！

*虽然不是完全符合我的性格。。。但是有一些还算蛮准的！！

成绩出了。。。

2008-11-24T08:22:00.000-08:00

终于。。
我的考试成绩出了。。
成绩并没有太差。。
但也没有所谓的很棒。。
大学的第一年第一个学期。。
就这么完了。。
从来都没有想过要修读会记的我。。。
也固执地做了这个决定。。。
无论这个决定是对的还是错的。。
我还是会努力的迈向我的目的地。。
虽然缺乏支持与鼓励。。。
别人行。。我也一定行！！
没人替我加油。。我自己为自己加油！！

这次的假期，对于我来说是个很长的假期。。。
漫长的令我有一点恐惧感
朋友们都好羡慕。。
可是。。我怎么不太享受这个长假？?
从以前到现在。。
发生了好多好多事情。。
当然伤心，不高兴的事情往往都占了一大部分。。。
蓝色是忧郁。。。灰色是不想说。。。
那我情愿我是灰色。。。

以前的心情。。。
喜，怒，哀，乐。。。
好像渐渐远离我了。。。
该伤心时。。眼泪却不掉下
该高兴时。。笑容却出不了。。
不知几时开始。。。
对很多事情已经没了感觉。。。
是因为对发生的事。。。
已经不感兴趣，
还是因为已经束手无棘。。。
所以不想去碰它。。
我自己也不清楚了。。

放假了~~

2008-10-27T10:10:00.000-07:00

啊。。。现在已经临晨一点钟了。。。。全家人都睡了啦。。。只有我这个家伙还没睡。。。待会儿，虎姑婆要出来咬我了。。嗯。。被我妈知道我替她去了这个这么好听的花名不知会怎样哦。。哈哈。。。

最近放假了。。。而且还长达两个月。。。。糟糕。。。可怕的长假又来了。。从小到现在。。最怕的日子就是长假。。。每天出去。。会被骂死。。在家又会闷死。。做工。。妈妈又说会累死。。。但不做工又穷死。。真的要烦死了。。。！！

最近。。朋友们都在考试。。。只有我一个无所事事。。。无所事事的我。。无聊到整天跟猫打架。。。没办法。。。最近。。不知哪儿来的猫。。只要不留意就溜进我家。。我可不想每天被猫吓死。。。天知道。。我家在白天就只我这个家伙在家。。如果无端端喊了一声。。。邻居很可能会认为我疯了。。。。我可是个满正常的家伙。。虽然。。偶尔会做一些奇怪的事。。。不过我还是很正常的。。。

这个星期六。。要去企鹅的生日会了。。。本来不想去的。。因为可能没交通。。。但是一想到。。可能会被企鹅掐死。。还是想想办法看。。一定要出席。。。最近。。企鹅不太高兴。。。唉。。我都不知要怎样帮她。。希望她开开心心吧。。。！！

啊。。。两个月。。。。该怎么过。。。还是明天。。跑去问工比较好。。。毕竟。。。累死好过闷死！！而且。。。我不要成为全家最得空的家伙啦！！！

希望可以成功找到工作！！
加油加油！！

啊。。差点忘了。。。

我的朋友们。。
考试快到了！！加油加油！！

我什么都不知道。。

2008-10-17T05:14:00.000-07:00

我想要的那片天空。。我一定会得到。。
虽然很多时候，一切根本都不在我的掌握之中。。
无论是友情，亲情，学业还是梦想。。。
所有的一切都好像是一个选择题。。
不同的。。只有。。答案对和错永远都是由别人的眼光，看法来判断。。。
很多时候，我都在问自己：我做错了吗？
如果。。就算是对了。。也会被认为是错的话。。
那么我宁愿当作我什么都不知道。。。
也没有任何意见。。。不想理。。。也不再去关心。。
反正。。如果我变回以前的我。。。
凡事都以“冷漠”的态度。。而不像现在这样。。
或许就不会一直做错事。。
也或许这才是属于我的生活方式。。。

回忆

2008-10-04T01:20:00.000-07:00

用一根火柴烧一场蜃楼
借这场大雨让自己逃走　　
慌忙公路无人的漂泊　　
寂寞海啸把我卷走　　
用一段感情换一个朋友　　
每一句再见割一道伤口　　
躲在万劫不复的街头　　
微笑参透覆水难收

倘若说放一次手　　
就像咳一个嗽　　
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

我坐在公路的出口　　
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞　　
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落　　
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头　　
游不出回忆却学不会放手　　怎么走

倘若说放一次手　　
就像咳一个嗽　　
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔
我坐在公路的出口　　
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞　　
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落　　
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头　　
游不出回忆却学不会放手　　怎么走
我坐在公路的出口　　
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞　　
连想你都是种残酷切磋

我目送沿海的日落　　
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头　　
游不出回忆却学不会放手　　怎么走

虽说回忆是最美好的。。
我怎么却走不出回忆。。
是学不会放手。。
还是不舍得放手。。
我还以为自己已经走出了那段回忆。。
却被朋友一语惊醒。。
原来我一直都还在原地徘徊。。
在原地徘徊的我。。。到底在期待什么？？

可怕的一天。。。

2008-08-22T21:37:00.000-07:00

2008年8月22日。。

真是可怕的一天。。。
因为舅母和舅舅来kl的关系。。。
我这个暂时性的无业游民就逃不过我妈妈的魔掌。。
原本是她负责带他们到处逛逛。。。买衣服。。
结果。。。该死的。。我很无辜的要跟着他们。。。

8 点半就被吵醒。。。
吃了早餐后。。。
就先带他们去mid valley..the garden..robinson..

然后。。。
就赶着去吃午餐。。。
真正的噩梦在午餐过后正式开始。。。

在那几个小时里。。。
我们先后去了sg.wang 和 lot 10...
如果你认为。。我们是只走几间店的话。。那你就错了。。。
差不多每一楼的每一间店。我们都有进。。。

过后。。
我以为我们要准备离开了。。。

该死的。。
他们说要走去pavilion...
美的选择。。
我唯有硬着头皮带他们从lot 10 走过去。。。

可恨的pavilion.。。
冷气实在是够冷！！
我们几个傻瓜。。。
四处乱走。。。
东看看西望望。。。。
结果。。。到最后。。。什么东西也没买到。。。

在我们从pavilion走回lot 10 的路途中。。。。。
老天不作美。。。
竟然下起大雨。。。
我们几个大傻瓜。。。
只好加快脚步。。
由于我的脚曾经受伤过。。
我根本就跑不到。。。。
结果。。只好淋着雨。。
尽量走快一些。。。

走回lot 10 后。。。
已经7点了。。。
我很高兴的认为。。
我可以去吃晚餐了。。。

结果。。。
因为附近大塞车的。。。
我们又在lot 10 闲逛。。
过后又去sg.wang 闲逛。。。。
直到8点30分才正式离开sg.wang...

这时。。。。
我的舅舅竟然说。。。
他要买我来也肉干。。。。
而且坚持要去茨场街的我来也。。。
谁来救救我。。。。

当时已经塞车塞到可怕。。。
结果。。我们有塞着车。。去买肉干。。。
去到那儿。。。。
还在下雨。。
唉。。。我注定有得淋雨了。。

过后。。。赶着去damansara 那儿。。。
去阿姨家吃晚餐。。。
一想到就快可以吃晚餐时。。。
我还真是高兴。。。

怎知....
真是该死的！！！
我妈竟然。。。。
走错路。。。。迷路了。。。。
当时因为她的驾驶技术有点糟的关系。。。
坐在后座的我已经晕的不省人事了。。。
现在有迷路。。。
我的天。。。。
又饿又累又晕的我。。。。
唯有致电给爸爸求救。。。。
最后才顺利到达！！~~

过后回到家时。。已经12点30分临晨了。。。

zzzZZZzzzzZZZ

我的选择。。。

2008-08-08T23:02:00.000-07:00

我终于做了一个选择。。。
二零零八年八月九日。。。我报读了。B.A HONS ACCOUNTING & FINANCE。。。
accounting 对我来说根本就是一个陌生的家伙。。。一点基础都没有。。。

第一次自己选择。。。
虽然家人都大力反对。。。但还是坚持。。。
这场仗。。。只有我一个人在撑着。。。
三年一点都不短。。。
所有的所有。。都从零开始学习。。。
得不到支持。。也得不到谅解。。。相同的情况每一年。。。每一个月。。每一分钟。。。每一秒。。都一直在重复着。。。。

或许。。。
这个选择。。。这条路。。充满了困难。。。。
但。。都是我自己的选择。。。
100%的努力。。。
100%的时间。。。
图书馆将成为我的第二个家。。。
笔记将成为我的好朋友。。。

泡一杯茶
独自品尝
回味着酸甜苦辣
造一条路
自己去走
起伏中体会坎坷艰难
不要怨茶好苦
苦尽自有甘来
不要怨路难行
坎坷后便是幸福

HappY Birthday To HueyPinG!!~

2008-07-30T08:34:00.000-07:00

finally....
i m twenty years old !!
since i m still awake now...so just simply up a blog to wish myself...
happy birthday!! (31/7)
healthy always ...
happy everyday!!
have a bright future!!
have a wondeful birthday!!~~

twenty years old ady...no more number"1" in front of my age...
so...have to bcome more mature in everything...making decision...

ohya....happy birthday to myself again!!~~
: )

听话的孩子

2008-07-15T10:18:00.000-07:00

每次我想更懂你
我们却更有距离
是不是都用错言语
也用错了表情
其实我想更懂你
不是为了抓紧你
我只是怕你会忘记
有人永远爱着你
爱你
Woo……

请你听听我的真心话
你每天看着我长大
但你是否了解我内心矛盾的对话
你板着脸孔不屑的对着我看
我的视线没有勇气
只好面对冷冰冰的地板
这就是你这就是我我们之间的互动
何时开始慢慢加以冷藏加以冷冻
我好想逃我好想躲进一个洞
我需要真正了解我的人为我进行解救
这就是我的内心请你仔细的剖
我试过好多次的机会想要触碰你手
课本写说你们应是我最好的朋友
但是显然不是我叙述我的故事

每次我想更懂你
我们却更有距离
是不是都用错言语
也用错了表情
其实我想更懂你
不是为了抓紧你
我只是怕你会忘记
有人永远爱着你
in this life our love is in our hearts to see
though people change the future＇s still inside of me
we must remember that romorrow comes after the dark
but I got something trapped in my heart
so I got something to say
in this life our love is in our hearts to see
though people change the future＇s still inside of me
we must remember that romorrow comes after the dark
but I got something trapped in my heart
so I got something to say

每次我想更懂你
我们却更有距离
是不是都用错言语
也用错了表情
其实我想更懂你
不是为了抓紧你
我只是怕你会忘记
有人永远爱着你
whenever you come
whatever we talk
and I＇ll right here waiting for you

你曾经说过当我站在十字路口
只要有你在我不会经历漫长的夜去等待
现在十字路口只有我独自站
没有对象寻找答案只好自我反叛
看我其实没那么好战
我也希望说话可以婉转不让你心烦
对你开口好难我想要无话不谈
我的人生我的个性其实没那么烂
这就是我的内心请你仔细的剖
我好想回到过去看你微笑摸摸我头
课本写说你们应是我最好的朋友
如果换个公式我祈祷不同故事

每次我想更懂
你我们却更有距离
是不是都用错言语
也用错了表情
其实我想更懂你
不是为了抓紧你
我只是怕你会忘记
有人永远爱着你

每次我想更懂你
我们却更有距离
是不是都用错言语
也用错了表情
其实我想更懂你
不是为了抓紧你
我只是怕你会忘记
有人永远爱着你
永远爱着你

很多时候。。。
并不是我不让你知道我的想法。。。。
当我有心想跟你谈一谈时。。。
你总是以你还是小孩子。。。
你还不够成熟。。。
她没有意见。。。
我会帮她做决定。。

你没问过我。。。
你怎会知道我的想法。。。
如果我还是小孩子的话。。。
为什么你每次问了我一个问题。。
当我给你我的答案时。。。
你仍然会一意孤行。。。
虽然我们都知道是不对的。。
是我没意见。。。
还是你不愿试着去了解我。。。

我不喜欢会记。。。
我渴望修读大众传媒。。。
当我稍微改变主意修读business 时。。。
别人问我。。
要读business admin..business accounting..还是business marketting时。。。
当我很用心地在看着科系解说是。。。
你竟然告诉别人说。。。
她没有意见。。。
就让她读最简单的business admin。。
获取一个degree 。。。
快快毕业就好了。。。。

如果每件事都要有你做主。。
那我的意见是否还有存在的意义。。。
我不是没意见。。。
我只是听从你的意见。。
或准确地是。。。
尊从你的意见。。。
做个听话的“ 孩子”。。。

mirror

2008-07-11T09:14:00.000-07:00

this will b my first post in this blog....
strongly believe that there r something i wish to share with my friend..and this blog is being secretive due to less of my friend know about this blog...all the post in this blog might be my truely thinking n feeling due to my growing road...
mayb it will be a tough n a road that full with difficult...but..i already start my first step..so will continue to walk until the end .....

this is a story about a girl named " PInG "
early morning she wakes up knock knock knock on the door ..
is time to study ..household....computer works...work hard ...perfect smile..
is u they're all waiting for...
isn't she happy this cheeful gal ...
and they say she's so lucky ....
born in a moderate family which make her need not go out to work....
surrounding by friend...
is the youngest daughter in the family ...
own a laptop ..a handphone..mp4
having deliecious food all the time...
buying the new and branded clothes...
but she cry cry cries in her lonely heart thinking
if there's nothing missing in my life
then why do there tears come at night...
isn't she happy this cheerful gal
but why does she cry...

smile happily in front of mirror
this photo shows that i m cheeful gal..an image in front of most of the ppl..
not only my friends ..especially my lovely family members...
yes i do...i m cheeful ...happy.. mayb it is just a image ...
what will happen to another "PInG" in the other side of mirror??
who knows?